two fattish, not so fittish, fortyish women chronicle their pursuit of healthier living
Friday, October 29, 2010
Day 29/weigh in
Today was the first night back at work for the week, whcih is always a little difficult to coordinate on the eating front. I had dinner (steak with mushrooms) before going to bed at around 5AM; I initially woke at 11AM, which is entirely too early, so I read for a bit and went back to sleep, waking again just before 5PM. I did the belly dancing DVD I reviewed yesterday - this time I was a little less fluid and coordinated with some movements but better in others - and after a shower had a very delicious Thai chicken salad with crunchy noodles.
Just before leaving for work, and still rather replete from the salad, I had my usual breakfast of weetbix and muesli with milk, topped with stewed fruit. When I got to work I had a mediterranian vegetable pasta with meatballs, followed by what was supposed to be forest fruit yoghurt but was sadly vanilla, which wans't too bad accompanied by Black Forest pears. And then I rolled out of the tearoom to start work!
My goals for the week ahead are:
1. drink more water, soemthing I still forget to do
2. incorporate exercise every day
3. no litle extras, even if eating out
Today's tallies -
Exercise: belly dancing DVD
Fruit rhubarb, raspberries, pears
Vegetables: mesclun salad mix, cucmber, raw carrot, cooked carrot, cherry tomatoes, semi-dried tomatoes, cooked tomatoes, onions, red onions, capsicum, zucchini, eggplant, red onion, garlic, green beans, potato wedges, mushrooms (in sauce)
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Amira’s Bellydance 101 (2008)
Radiate your feminine beauty and discover fitness and fun through bellydance!Review: I saw this DVD on a display at the library, and borrowed it on a whim more than anything else. I didn’t read the back blurb at the time, and probably would have been put off by the emphasis on female sensuality that is evident from the cited copy, and which continues on the disc – the first couple of minutes consist of a sequence of still photos of various women in belly dancing outfits, with a voice over by Amira extolling the history, culture and female energy of the dance form. This style continues throughout the DVD – a voiceover describing the routines, over a woman (possibly Amira) demonstrating them in an Arabian styled space.
Discover the joy, energy, and passion of a dance that’s uniquely yours with this beginner’s DVD. Whatever your age, size, shape or experience! Amira’s Bellydance 101 unveils the mesmerizing beauty and art of Middle Eastern dance and empowers you to Celebrate Your Womanhood!…
Learn to love and move your body with grace and confidence. Nurture yourself with safe & gentle warm-ups and stretches. Practice 60 minutes of step-by-step instructions with Amira.
The key to belly dancing is isolated movement, so that an accomplished dancer can both move one part of her body while the rest of her body is motionless, or move different parts in unrelated patterns. This is exemplified in the image that immediately springs to my mind when I think of belly dancing – hips undulating in a figure eight contrasting with still torso and shoulders.
The DVD opens with stretches, and from then on is therefore divided into anatomical categories – torso, arms, hips. Each section begins with a reminder about neutral body posture (shoulders back and down, pelvis tilted under and forward, knees soft) and breaks down a movement into component parts. The first movement Amira discusses and demonstrates, for example, is to undulate your head from side to side along a single plane, without moving your shoulders or neck; she makes it look effortless and mesmerising, After attempting it several times, I was relieved when she then offered another element to assist practicing; I suspect, however, that I won’t be mastering the technique soon.
After breaking down the move it’s sped up and repeated, before another segment is broken down. Throughout the narration is reassuring about viewers going at their pace, reiterating that many of the moves appear simple but take practice and discipline to master. I particularly liked the instruction to respect and honour the limitations of our bodies, an affirming contrast to most exercise instructors’ exhortations to dominate our bodies. At one point, when I felt my upper arms and shoulders fatiguing, she remarked that sore shoulders at this point indicated that the posture was being performed correctly, which was reassuring.<
After entirely too long without doing any real exercise, and spending far too much time watching TV online in bed, my back and hips have become very stiff and quite painful. The less I do the worse it is, but despite knowing that, I’ve been finding it difficult to get up and moving unless I have to be somewhere (like work).
Within a couple of minutes of starting the warm up stretches I could feel the tension easing and the pain dissipating, and though very much a novice I was pleased and surprised by how many motions I feel comfortable with already. Others, particularly the coordination of simultaneous snake arms and reverse body rolls, are going to take a lot more practice before I feel any degree of confidence.
Unlike every other dance DVD I’ve tried, Amira’s Bellydance 101 felt natural and achievable, as though I was working with my body instead of against it. Though there were moves I could only attempt, and though I know I have a very long way to go, I felt inspired and invigorated, rather than frustrated and disheartened. I have no doubt that advanced practitioners work up a sweat and exert themselves; this wasn’t anything like a workout, but that isn’t the aim. Instead it’s about reconnecting with your body, feeling better after you’re finished than you did when you began, and mastering the building blocks of an ancient art form. I thoroughly enjoyed the DVD, and intend doing it again several times in the next week or so, with an eye to buying it or something similar. - Alex
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Day 27
I was going to go out again for dinner tonight, but it was fortunately rescheduled. I say ‘fortunately’ because I’ve somehow ended up with far more dinners than I expected, given that I’ve only had three nights where I ate a non-Lite’n’Easy meal. I went for the sausages and mash option instead, and was pleasantly surprised – the three sausages weren’t massive but they were juicy and full of flavour, tasting as though there was far more meat than filler. The gravy was rich and not as sweet as I’ve found some of the sauces so far, and the vegetables were moist yet crisp.
Tomorrow marks my fourth week of Lite’n’Easy, and so far I’m still enjoying it. Though there are some dishes that recur across the weeks, there’s enough variety and taste to keep it all interesting. Even with that I think I’m eating more widely than I had been on my own, as well as re-educating myself about appropriate portion sizes. There’s a nice balance between sweet and savoury selections, and between meals and snacks, and though I’d like a little more salad, I understand why the fresh vegetable dishes only appear on the first three days of each week; it also makes those days something to look forward to. Now I just need to get up and moving. - Alex
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Day 26
Lunch was quite exciting today – a hamburger with beetroot relish and a sliced tomato (the provided version substituted with a truss tomato from IGA) that was significantly smaller than anything you’d buy from a shop but bursting with flavour.
My snack was a vegetable frittata, more filling than exciting but not bad, and the oft-recurring fruit and nut mix; my additional snack was a fruit muffin with jam. I was also supposed to have some dried apricots, but the snack pack didn’t make it into the delivery this week – so far I think there have been one or two items missing every week, which is irritating but not enough to have me leave the program.
Unfortunately I more than made up for it by continuing yesterday's chocaholia, dipping into the dark chocolate several times while reading in bed - this encompasses three of my least good habits: mindless snacking, eating when reading, and staying in bed instead of getting up as soon as I wake.
The non-program eating was compounded by a family dinner. One of my cousins moved to Melbourne a couple of years ago – it was her elder daughter’s ninth birthday, and her father’s seventieth a few days early. We ate at a contemporary Australian restaurant in one of Melbourne’s more expensive suburbs, and though many items on the menu sounded tempting, I chose an entrée of that most present of vegetarian options, a caramelised onion tart with goat’s cheese, on this occasion accented with “a bacon crisp” (or, to you and me, a small and crispy strip of bacon). The dish was smaller than I expected, which is no bad thing, and was de-constructed, which was interesting – the tart was more like a disk of crisp pastry topped by caramelised onions and green salad, with a round slice of goat’s cheese alongside, accompanied by a pot of Béarnaise sauce in a tiny jug. I’m not a fan of goat’s cheese, which I tend to find overpowering on its own, but this was delicious. The tart was complex and buttery, its richness cut by the salad; I passed on the sauce altogether, but did have a couple of (fortunately slightly overcooked) French fires. I also had just under half of the chocolate birthday cake, and all of the very decadent vanilla ice cream.
And I had something of a workout, taking the two younger children outside, where they jumped off benches to be caught, swing in the air, twirled around, turned upside down and hunted for, and lifted into the air. It was fun all round, but I had to take a couple of breaks. It will be interesting to see how I do next time, when they’ll be heavier but I will hopefully be stronger. – Alex
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Day 24
Tucked into everything are vegetables – the sultana tea cake coming up in a couple of days has sweet potato as its primary ingredient – which may explain a) how so much food can be included for the calorie count and b) why it’s mostly so filling. I’m thinking that next week I might list all the vegetables I encounter each day, just for my own curiosity. Or that may just be sleep deprivation talking.
I intended to leave for home soon after the end of my shift, but instead puttered about for an hour, then spoke with a colleague for another hour; I was still in her office when another colleague popped by inviting her to join him for tea, and I managed to spend another two hours in the tea room before finally wending my way home. By that stage, of course, I wasn’t interested in walking and so another exercise opportunity was avoided thanks to procrastination.
Worse, sleep deprivation impairs my decision making ability and lowers my resistance, which means I hoed into the big container of dark chocolate callettes I have for baking. I'm not sure how much I had, but sucpect if was somewhere between 100g and 200g; even though darl chocolate's high in antioxidants it is better in moderation, and not at all on my plan. - Alex
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Day 23
Until now the yoghurts have been flavoured (passionfruit and forest berry have been the former varieties), surprisingly rich, and very edible. The vanilla? Not so much – it smelled unpleasant when I opened the lid, and the taste did nothing to appeal. As I decant my meals before going to work, I had the opportunity to substitute my own reduced fat vanilla yoghurt, topping it with a little of my perennial favourite, stewed rhubarb and raspberries.
As is usually the case on Sundays, I caught up with my mother for breakfast, and had a rather abstemious pair of poached eggs on unbuttered muffins, accompanied by a far from miserly serving of bacon. Yummy but not, I suspect, falling within my calorie restriction. - Alex
Day 22/weigh in
My dieting friend is a day ahead of Lite'n'Easy's menu thanks to delivery areas, so I'd already had a heads up about today's lunch of warm salad with dim sims dressed with Canton sauce - half a dozen delicious little mouth-sized morsels that are now sadly another four weeks away. The rest of the day's meals were fine but not as exciting - pumpkin soup with a multigrain roll, pears in a faintly orange syrup, the first unpleasant yoghurt I've had thus far (vanilla, that tasted a little not quite right, even after I added some stewed berries), and the scrummy date and banana muffin I ravenously devoured in yesterday's waning.
For dinner I had chicken enchiladas, which had a little too much heat for my wussy super-taster tongue but were certainly filling and a bit of a change from the more usual meat and steamed veg.
Although I've been fairly diligent about not eating anything outside the provided meals (except for breakfast), there are two areas I really need to work on in the next couple of weeks - drinking enough water (particuarly at work, partly because it's busy and partly because I've fallen out of the habit) and exercise (still entirely too sedentary). I am feeling better and less breathless, but I think that's the result of three weeks of iron supplements, taken in conjuntion with vitamin C (which increases absorption). The brand I've chosen is particularly good because it's not constipating and it doesn't turn stools black. I've not lost enough weight and, more importantly, not done enough exercise to change my cardiorespiratory function, so I think my diagnosis of anemia was sound. Which now means there's one fewer excuse for avoiding the workout - my current excuse, however, is that I have to go to sleep. - Alex
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Day 18
That would have been less than ideal but fine, had I not lingered for a while after work and, sitting in the tea room reading, idly polished off another three slices, washed down with about 100ml of Coke, and followed that with three sweets (two pieces of caramel fudge and a piece of coconut ice I didn't even enjoy). This last part is particularly annoying, as I still had a chocoalte muesli bar and two little spicy fruit biscuits left over, along with an orange.
I think I combined mindless eating with a little sleep-deprived grazing (which is why poor sleep is associated with increased caloric consumption) and the hung-for-a-sheep-as-for-a-lamb approach. I'm also mourning the apparent death of my Tivo, but suspect I'm grasping at straws now!
In any event, instead of being thrown into a morass of dietary despair and giving up on the whole thing altogether I'm still commited to my journey and see this as a regretable but forgivable meander. In the normal course of things I'd skip dinner in lieu, but as it's my first day off work and I plan to stay up all day (I have a vast backlog of book reviews to catch up on, two overdue tax returns and a threatening amount of work to do for uni) I think that way will lie devouring of timtams. Hmm, maybe a small nap is in order. Or an early night, now I haven't got Tivo to watch. And I was so lookign forward to the premiere of "Sherlock." - Alex
Monday, October 18, 2010
Day 17
I went out for breakfast in my weekly maternal catch up ritual, and ordered my new standard of poached eggs on unbuttered muffins with steamed spinach. The latter's a little oversalted, and I'm thinking I may skip it next week, but it was pleasant. I popped in to the supermarket after breakfast, buying the Aldi equivalent of Weetbix and low-fat yoghurt, then wholemeal muffins (on sale!), sensitive toothpaste for my newly sad teeth, and some low-fat muesli from Coles - this is noteworthy only because I didn't even feel tempted by the donuts in the bakery section or the chocolates at the ends of the aisles.
Unfortunately I stayed in the car chatting instead of going home to bed, with the sad resulting bedtime of 1PM, undermining my resolution to get at least seven hours of sleep a day. I'm also not managing to sleep through the afternoon as well as usual, having woken almost every day this week to pee, usually quite large amounts. I suspect (and hope) this will settled down as I become more consistent with water intake and as my body realises it doesn't have to hold on to the fluid for as long.
Because I'd already had breakfast I had dinner when I awoke, choosing the roast lamb with vegetables - it wasn't bad, but I'd have preferred a thicker but less abundant gravy. I've noticed that many of the dishes are sweeter than I'd make myself which, given I've got quit the sweet tooth, is a bit of a call. All in all, though, a good day. - Alex
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Day 16
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Day 15/weigh in 2
This afternoon, however, I had a seminar to go to, which meant dinner before going to bed, breakfast on rising (around 1PM), part one of my lunch/snacks when I got to uni and the rest when I got to work. Yes, I know – fascinating. Well, the seminar (or, strictly speaking, PhD oration) certainly was, but that’s somewhat beside the point.
Day 1 of week D is certainly delicious, and very filling - I had the snack of cheesy chicken spaghetti when I got to uni, some when I got to work (a piece of delicately seasoned roast chicken sliced over a salad and wrapped in a mayonnaise-spread wrap; and a baked vegetable patty with sweet chilli sauce) when I got to work, and dessert (stewed peaches; and a reprise of week B's apple and sultana pancake!) just before midnight.
But before all of that I weighed in - though a little disappointing after my illicit post-diarrhoea weigh in the day before (dehydration may not result in an accurate picture of progress, but it does make for a gratifying one), I've lost a further 2.1K, bringing my loss thus far to 4.4k in two weeks.
I suspect that I'm not going to manage any significant exercise over the weekend, particularly as I didn't fit it in on this least rushed on days, but beginning Monday it's back on, so I can both maintain the loss and so I can build up my fitness as I de-escalate the weight. I can't see myself ever being close to the 60k or so that is recommended by BMI calculators for my height (BMI = 22), but 75k or so (BMI = 28) sounds reasonable and achievable. And my current BMI? Is north of 40, just to give you an idea of where I'm coming from.
For the record, I think BMI is a simplistic and flawed measure of health, that doesn't take frame, ethnicity or gender into account. more importantly, the divisions between categories are purely arbitrary - there are no differences between the health outcomes of a person who's BMI is 24.9 and one whose BMI is 25.1, but one is 'healthy' and the other is 'overweight.' In many cases outcomes are better for people wtih a BMI between 30 and 34 or so. for more criticism of BMI see this article, this response to another article, this article about what's wrong with the western campaign to lose weight instead of to gain fitness, and go here to read about how changing the definitions of BMI categories massively increased the number of 'overweight' Americans overnight; for a more visual representation of the arbitrary nature of BMI check out Kate Harding's BMI Project. Despite all that, my BMI isn't an inaccurate reflection of my size. - Alex
Friday, October 15, 2010
Day 14
Unfortunately, something I had yesterday tripped my intermittently sensitive gut and I had a couple of unhappy early morning liquid experiences involving pain, reactionary nausea, involuntary tears (of the liquid rather than ripping variety) and rocking on the loo, but though a little sore the next day am okay. I used my slightly delicate morning state as a reason to eschew a vigorous workout today, but went for a walk in the afternoon after my delivery arrived.
I’m quite excited about the week ahead, which seems quite salad-filled – tomorrow I’ve got a salad and chicken wrap, Saturday’s Hokkien chicken noodles is much more of a cold salad with pasta than the hot dish I pictured, and on Sunday I’ve got Thai fish cakes with Asian slaw. This is also the first week that has multiple days where no specific country or cuisine is mentioned: so far we’ve had Thai, Turkish, Tandoori, Hawaiian, Moroccan, Greek, Hoisin, Thai again, Asian (admittedly a region not a country), Vietnamese, Mediterranean (another region), Greek again, and Asian twice more.
On the downside, there’s an item missing – the multigrain muffin for Monday’s snack (with peanut butter and honey, though I think I’ll substitute jam). I thought about buying a packet of muffins and freezing them, but I’m trying to have fewer additional groceries. At the moment I’ve swapped out the soy and linseed roll from Saturday’s snack, which is meant to accompany a bowl of tomato soup. As Sunday’s a work night, and I’ll be having all the lunch and snacks together, I think I’ll be fine without it.
My rather pedestrian, Aussie breakfast today was that old standby, porridge with a handful of sultanas, topped by a fresh portion of stewed rhubarb and raspberries, sticking to the research from Real Age reporting that less variety results in a smaller intake. The theory seems to be partly based on a response to the cafeteria diet theory (that the more options one has the more one eats, thanks to the experience we’ve all had of being too full for any more of X but still having room for Y), and partly because eating out of rote rather than choosing a meal reduces our appetite. As I wrote on Tuesday (day 12), that’s one of the things I’ve found unexpected but useful with Lite’n’Easy – I have at least as much variety as I had when I was responsible for all my meals, but I don’t need to do any thinking about it apart from the five or ten minutes I spend once a week ordering the food online. Particularly now I’ve started sorting the food on arrival into frozen and refrigerator bags for each day rather than leaving them in the “day 5 – lunch, freezer” way they’re packaged. Stacking them in the freezer in order means I just have to reach in and take the closest one to me; in the fridge I line them up in a shopping bag with day 7 on the left and day 1 on the right.
It’s interesting that I’m going to some lengths to keep my Lite’n’Easy journey private or secret. Even though I live alone, I’ve been tidying up as I go so a casual, unexpected visitor won’t see any traces of Lite’n’Easy in the kitchen and, as I’ve mentioned previously, I repackage my meals before going in to work.
I remember that when I first got glasses, at the age of eight, I linked them with being fat. I’m the eldest daughter of a woman who’s had a lifetime preoccupation with weight, particularly her own, that persists even though she’s almost seventy and currently in the best shape of her life thanks to a combination of regular aerobic exercise, yoga, weight training and forgetting to eat. I know that my eating and being fat is in part a way of rebelling and exercising control, and many’s the time that, though I’ve recognised the connection, I’ve watched myself leave her after a distressing event or argument and eaten food I didn’t want without being able to stop it. For me, part of that is also maintaining a near-universal façade of being happy with my size, and to an extent that’s true – the size I am now fits the mental picture I’ve had of myself for most of my life, and even though I started this current leg of my life journey at my heaviest ever weight, I’ve still been within about 15% of it for the last twenty years. But I also have fantasies about being ‘normal’ weight, not necessarily because I think my life will transform into perfection – I know I’ll still be me – but because I have no idea what it’s like. When I was thin, in my teens, I thought I was fat, and I destroyed pretty much all the photos of myself, so I have only a handful of pictures of what I looked like then. I can’t visualise what I would like at, say, eighty kilos let alone sixty-five.
My siblings are all thin, and I really like the idea of being able to show people pictures of them without the intake of surprise and the almost required remark that they look so different – two of them are also brunettes, with similar facial structures, and as my sisters (though one a blue-eyed blonde and the other a hazel-eyed brunette) have an increasing resemblance as they progress through their thirties, I’m well aware the surprise is because they’re thin. And though I always make a light-hearted joke about it, I’d like to hear something else instead. I’d also like to see my family’s response, and I’m interested to see how our family dynamic would change. Though, as my siblings all live overseas, the dynamic’s already quite different.
Of course I’m also interested in the health side of things – I want to be fitter and stronger. But that’s really a secondary gain, along with the fact that I know I’ll seek health care more readily when I’m not concerned that my weight will be attributed to the symptoms. I don’t have any chronic health issues, and since I stopped seeing a horrible GP almost twenty years ago it hasn’t even been mentioned by a health practitioner unless I’ve brought it up, but I’ve read horror stories, and being sent off for thyroid function testing (in the absence of any symptoms of hypothyroidism) not once but three times when my presenting issues were wholly unrelated, does have an impact. I’m currently overdue for a Pap smear, breast exam and routine blood work, including the iron studies I think my recent shortness of breath warrants, because since my old GP moved to the other side of town about a decade ago I’ve only gone to multi-practitioner clinics. It’s very exposing, seeing a doctor for the first time, and while I’m happy to do it for a work certificate or to get antibiotics for a persistent chest infection (or, as embarrassingly happened a few months ago, cellulitis), I’m loath to for ongoing care. Which is ridiculous – I certainly know better, and I believe many of the poorer health care outcomes for fat people is because of this very issue. Like many people, though, I can hold two incompatible concepts in my head, which is how I can both champion size acceptance and want to be considerably thinner.
I have told three of my friends about Lite’n’Easy, including Lynn, of course. I like having a couple of people I can discuss how I’m going with, and the husband of one of my friends is thinking about trying it too, so she’s very interested in my reports back.
Which brings me back to today’s menu. So far my microwave has earned that long walk bringing it here entailed, as there were two components that needed reheating. Lunch was a cheese roll with caramelised onion chutney, which I teamed with the vegetable patty that was supposed to be an afternoon snack, adding a few spinach leaves for freshness. The rolls are far smaller than a standard hamburger bun, but as my appetite is being reshaped I found it perfectly adequate and quite tasty. I think I’d have a problem if I was on the 1500 calorie program, but hopefully that will change.
The fruit-filled snacks were an apricot muesli bar, an apple, and the optional (aka 1800 calorie program) “apricot snack pack” that was a handful of dried apricots. The optional element also included a reprise of yesterday’s Asian rice bowl. Dinner was also a reprise, as I had the lasagna last week - the vegetables were fine (carrots, beans and a little cauliflower), and the generous serving of lasagna was delicious. - Alex
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Day 13
Lunch was an Asian rice bowl, which had chicken, veggies and a marinade at the bottom, an apple, some yoghurt with passionfruit, and a spicy fruit biscuit (which for some reason is always in the menu guide as plural but there’s definitely just one of them). My afternoon snack was two corn fritters, which were supposed to be accompanied by a tomato salsa sauce but were instead packaged with (possibly yesterday’s) sweet chilli. I think the salsa would have suited them better, but they were fine anyway.
For dinner I selected a non-traditional beef stroganoff, light (unsurprisingly) on the cream and heavy on the vegetables and tomatoes. The noodles were a little more than al dente, but there was a generous amount of both meat and vegetables, and it was something of a relief to have a break from the steamed vegetables that accompany the majority of the other dinners.
I didn’t have today’s milk allocation at breakfast and, feeling a little cold and needy before bed, instead made a much lighter version of hot chocolate than my usual fare, combining unsweetened cocoa powder with hot water into a paste, adding low fat milk (so much easier in the microwave than on a stovetop, and with no milk-coated pan to wash up), a teaspoon of sugar and a drop of pure vanilla extract. It was significantly less indulgent that my previous version (which involved callets of Belgian milk chocolate melted in full fat milk and topped with a little ice cream) but still hit the spot. - Alex
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Day 12
I don’t feel as though I accomplished a lot today, which is a little disappointing – my intentions are always good but then I meander through my day without achieving any of the umpteen things that really need doing. Like ringing the bank to find out why they charged me an unwarranted fee, or doing exercise.
The latter isn’t actually wholly true, because I did go to an evening stretch class, which sounds far more innocuous than the deep breathing, straining reality. I certainly feel a little more limber, but am very disappointed that I couldn’t at all do one of the positions – it involved having kneeling on one leg with your toes on the mat, weight on the foot of the other leg, then rising yourself part way off the floor. I was okay, of not brilliant, when lifting on the right, but couldn’t get off the ground at all on the left side and will have to practice. I ended the class pink and faintly damp, then proceeded to miss my stop tram stop and took over two hours to get home. But at least I’ve got the ball rolling on the exercise front, and it’s a process.
The other thing I did was buy a few truss tomatoes and 100g or so of mesclun salad mix, because I can’t take the anaemic Lite’n’Easy tomatoes another day. I had half of one tomato on my post-stretch return home, with a veggie burger. It was supposed to be on a round roll, rather than the sourdough bun supplied, but that was fine. Oddly, instead of the peach fruit cup, I got a tin of tuna and instead of the sweet chilli sauce I got mayonnaise, and I got one from each of the popular and alternative snacks. I have to say that the truss tomato made a massive difference, and I enjoyed every mouthful.
The additional snack today was a pesto chicken pasta bowl, which was fine, filling and quite warm on a cold Melbourne afternoon. For dinner I tried the roast turkey, which came with pumpkin, roast potatoes, peas and a slightly dull but serviceable sauce. I was quite peckish before bed and, as it was after midnight, had the fruit bun from tomorrow – heated in the microwave in had an attractive, hot cross bun taste and I didn’t miss the butterlessness of it.
I think one of the things I’m finding helpful about doing Lite’n’Easy is that I’m also getting used to not being full, and drinking a glass of water instead of reaching for food when I do feel a little hollow. Once my allocation for the day’s gone, that’s it until tomorrow. I’ve given away responsibility for my food, and there’s something quite liberating about it – except for deciding, once a week, which of the binary options I’ll have for each meal, what I eat is out of my hands. Provided I stick with that mindset, and don’t start adding things (with the exception of salad leaves and decent tomatoes) I think this could be really useful in the long run. This is certainly the longest I’ve gone without chocolate in the better part of two decades, too. – Alex
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Day 11
Because I have today off, I decided to have porridge for breakfast, made with skim milk and a small handful of sultanas. While the milk was heating I chopped up the last of my rhubarb, and put it in a freezer container along with a few generous measures of raspberries, reserving enough for my meal. I stewed the raspberries and rhubarb over a low heat, with a little water, about two teaspoons of pear extract, and a drop of orange oil, and ate it with the porridge and a little vanilla yoghurt.
I chose the optional lunch today, which was a skimpy combination of cheese on a long grain roll (which was supposed to come with fruit chutney - I substituted caramelised onion relish and grilled the pieces for a couple of minutes), a cup of diced two fruits, tropical nut mix (predominantly sultanas and raw cashews), the oft-recurring soy nuts, a quite nice rice pudding, and a delicious ricotta spinach 'cake' that was more like a mini fritatta.
For dinner I tried the meatloaf - although the meat was somewhat rubbery and had a manufactured texture, the mashed potato was really delicious and the gravy wasn't bad. I think this will probably be an option I order every few weeks. - Alex
Monday, October 11, 2010
Day 10
And the food today was equally satisfying, starting with soy chicken tender (a piece of marinated chicken breast, which I thinly sliced and heated) on a green salad with crispy noodles and a piquant Vietnamese dressing, followed by stewed peaches and apricots (plus a random, unadvertised prune). The afternoon snacks were sultana tea cake, which I decided not to warm and have with margarine, and Greek yoghurt with berries, and for tea I had a pleasant fettucini bolognaise that, though it already came with cheese on top, was accompanied by a sachet of more cheese. For dinner I had roast beef, with roast potatoes, pumpkin, cauliflower and peas. - Alex
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Day 9
The snack that distinguishes the 1800 calorie program from the 1500 was an interesting steak and mushroom pie - the meat was fine, but the pastry was an unusual shortcrust topping that, in fairness, might have been nicer if it's had another 15 or so seconds heating time. The accompanying grain roll was fine but unexciting,and the tropical crush (pineapple with passion fruit) was refreshing.
For dinner I had a tortilla stack - a Mexican-inspired combination of tomato, beans and cheese sandwiched between flat bread that is one of the programs few vegetarian options. It was spicy and filling, and I think I'll have it again.
Reading back over the last couple of entries I think I'm making the food sound more pedestrian and less appetising than it actually is. I'm still very much enjoying the program overall, it's just that there are some days when the food is stellar, and others where it's just not. I'm feeling optimistic about tomorrow, though - salad of potential deliciousness! - Alex.
Day 8/first weigh in
I very much doubt that will be an average for the weeks and months ahead, but it's certainly an invigorating start and will help bolster me if I begin to lose motivation. So far, though, the process has been significantly easier than I anticipated - it's early days, but so far I've had no cravings at all, and have been completely untempted by anything, even when it's in front of me (except the slice of garlic pizza last night).
Breakfast today was the last of the current batch of stewed rhubarb/raspberry, with yoghurt, Weetbix and muesli. Yesterday I sorted my weekly delivery into frozen and refrigerated bags, so I can just grab one of each and head off. I've put the fruit (including anemic tomatoes) into a bowl, so I'll keep an eye on the menu plan and pick additions up appropriately.
Work has been busy the last wee while, so as a morale booster/thank you, my boss arranged for pizzas for lunch, and her boss brought slices (chocolate, lemon etc) for dessert. I'd like to say I resisted, but I succumbed and had three pieces of quite delicious pizza. I'd eaten the rice crackers and salsa dip on the way in to work, and had the broccoli & chicken pasta bake for dinner, along with a citrus sultana oat biscuit. I had the sliced turkey and cranberry sauce roll (which would have been considerably enlivened with a little baby spinach or lettuce), and walnut & date cake when I got home at 11PM (after one of the most unpleasant evenings in my twenty-one year career), instead on a Lite'n'Easy dinner.
On the plus side, until last week I would probably have vacuumed up half a dozen pieces, washed down with Coke, and sampled a number of the slices. So I'm going to be kind to myself, and not see this as a failure. After all, I have to incorporate change into my life, not put my life on hold. - Alex
Friday, October 8, 2010
Day 7
Fortunately, I repackaged and packed today's food ahead of time, so I only had to grab my bag and leave. I had breakfast (same as yesterday: 2 Weetbix, a handful of Coles' light muesli, a couple of spoonsful each of low fat yoghurt and stewed rhubarb/raspberries) when I got to work, then during my first break had a vegetable frittata and a toasted cheese sandwich on multigrain - it was supposed to come with mustard but that wasn't supplied, so I substituted some of the last of a caramelised onion relish from the fridge. At lunch I tasty Hoisin beef noodles, a fruit cup, dried apricots and a biscuit.
I went out for dinner with friends, and faced my first fully non-Lite'n'Easy meal (breakfast on Sunday was, except for the vodka/juice, the same as a provided breakfast would be). It was an Italian restaurant, and I didn't exactly fall wholly off the diet wagon but I certainly ate more than if I'd had the Lite'n'Easy meal in my freezer - delicious ravioli filled with pureed blue swimmer crab and prawn with vermouth and cream sauce, followed by just under half a shared chocolate mousse on a thin sponge. It was all delicious, I thoroughly enjoyed every mouthful, and though I was replete I didn't feel stuffed. I should have skipped the garlic pizza but stopped at one piece, and only drank water.
I'm weighing in tomorrow, so we'll see then how much damage dinner done. In any case I can't have gained. Surely. - Alex
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Day 6
I think one of the best things I'm getting from Lite'n'Easy is a better sense of portion control, and it's certainly made it easier to stop eating regardless of whether or not I feel full - if the food's gone, that's it!
I'm already getting a little tired of the dreary tomatoes and the scarcity of salad - the couple of rolls I've had so far would have been enlivened by a small portion of baby spinach, and I don't think cherry and/or truss tomatoes would make a big difference to their bottom line but would add a lot to meal enjoyment. I'm not unhappy about buying extras myself, but that would mean letting the provided food go to waste.
That said, the Thai chicken salad with crispy noodles I had on Friday (day 1) was really delicious and satisfying. There's another salad coming up next week that I have high hopes for, and when I decide to come off Lite'n'Easy I think my salads are going to be more interesting than they used to be. - Alex
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Day 5
Today's Lite'n'Easy lunch was smoked beef and tomato on grain roll, an orange, an apricot muesli bar, some roasted chick peas and baked beans on toast. Quite nice, but nothing amazing. The frozen lasagna for dinner, though, was quite delicious, and goes on the list of dinners I'll order again. - Alex
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Day 4
The problem with nights is that severe sleep debt makes decision making difficult - I can make clinical decisions easily, but dither over less important choices, like which three potential models on sale at Target would be best. There was a sale, which meant my choices were a $99 functional model with a heavy lifting (17-25k) warning, a reduced from $109 to $99 prettier model that was under 16k, and a really lovely silver and black Breville microwave reduced to $109 from $179.
I think you may already have guessed my choice. It didn't have any information about weight. I suspect it weighed more than I'll be losing between now and Christmas, because it got progressively heavier the further I had to carry it, and without a car that was a bit of a trek.
But now I have it! Of course, I then had to find somewhere in my already full kitchen to put it, which meant clearing off the top of the fridge (formerly used to house a big bowl of packets of nuts, dried fruit and seeds, a rolling pin too long for the drawers, and a roll each of foil and kitchen towel. The fridge has had a wobble for a while, so I decided to clear it out, defrost the freezer, clean the fridge, then tilt it so I could adjust the balance of the unit. Now I have a pretty microwave atop a clean, well-balanced fridge. And, because it's hard rubbish week, I continued the tidying theme by chucking my old computer monitor (bought when Windows ME was introduced) and attaching the flat version I bought two years ago.
I'm already regretting that I ordered next week's meals at the same time as this week's, instead of waiting to see what the program was like. Today was a little disappointing in comparison with previous days - I thought I'd be missing chocolate by now, so I chose the optional lunch over the popular/default version (savoury meatballs with salad and Moroccan relish, pear fruit cup, sultana & date cookie, corn fritters with spicy tomato salsa). I did that because the snacks were popcorn and a chocolate muesli bar, which were quite nice. But the tuna, tomato and mayonnaise on multigrain was a little unexciting, even though I substituted the insipid mass harvested tomato for the last of my pre-Lite'n'Easy cherry truss tomatoes.
On the plus side, I discovered that my life-long avoidance of chicken noodle soup has been unnecessary, because I enjoyed it a lot, and the apple crumple was quite delicious.
There's no question that my diet is more varied than usual, and with the exception of yesterday's vodka and juice, I haven't had so much as an extra apricot. I also haven't felt at all deprived, nor hungry. I suspect that I'll eventually find the dinners, despite the available, rotating range, hard to stomach because of the ever-present slightly watery frozen vegies, but so far it's all good, and I'm earmarking my favourites. So far I've been very taken with the battered fish (which comes with potato wedges, carrots, beans and corn), and the roast lamb. - Alex
Monday, October 4, 2010
Day 3
My overnight meals were a salad and hot Tandoori chicken wrap with chutney, Hawaiian chicken with rice, and apple and sultana pancake and a choclate museli bar. Because I had breakfast before bed, I'll be having the fish, wedges and vegies dinner when I get to work, and I've got an apple to crunch while waiting for the tram. Still impressed with the meals - Alex
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Day 2
Instead I I had Turkish meatballs with cous-cous, chicken pesto fettucini, an orange, an apple and cranberry muffin and a serving of corn chips with salsa. And an actual serving of corn chips, by the way, is not big but it was enough, particularly in conjunction with the rest of the food and in the absence of a tempting bag.
Still no exercise, but feeling virtuous, and replete. - Alex
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Day one
As I don't have a microwave I'll have the meatballs when I get to work, which is still day 1 - given my schedule I've decided to go with 24 hour days (00:00-23:59) rather than my usual accounting of a day starting anew when I wake up, regardless of the time that is.
There's a lot more variety in each weekly menu than I'd usually have, and although the menu rotates through three times I suspect I'm more likely to be excited about recognising favourites rather than groaning that it's week A again. I'm even wondering what meals I'll be missing out on once I transition off the program, which is a little sad!
Now for the downside - I haven't done any exercise, not just today but in ages. Not only am I heavier than I've ever been before, I'm also in poorer shape. I'm getting a little short of breath with relatively minimal exertion, compared to what I consider my baseline. I think I may be a little anemic, and intend to have some baseline bloods done (any day now...) but it's also general deconditioning.
So, out of hibernation and back into my life. The next few days are going to be entirely too ridiculous for exercise, but I'm on days starting Monday and will be doing my first workout in ages. Oh, and buying a microwave.
On Tuesday I'll also do a stretch program, either a class or DVD, so that I can walk to work on Wednesday without the shin splints that have started kicking in during the short stroll to my local library. - Alex